Team villains except me

Chapter 499 Because I love you

The rain twisted everything.

Judas and Totag were like two hazy shadows in the rain, connecting and tearing each other apart. The sound of the flapping wings in the air became dull, and it sounded like a vague whisper to my ears.

The water vapor is so abundant.

It was just that the sky was dark, the rain was slowly fading, and a mist was hanging over the ocean. The ocean was deep, and compared with the gloomy sky, the ocean was more like an expanding vortex, and despair was spreading.

Judus and Totag seemed so small, so small that if they were swept into the ocean they would disappear without a trace.

Totag half-knelt in front of Judas. He was frighteningly thin, and his shirt, soaked by the rain, stuck to his skin. The excess fabric formed messy folds, and the hem of his shirt piled on the beach.

Judas lowered her head, her veil fitting her face, as if sealed by the fine rain, sticking to her lips, making her maintain a silence that made Totag despair.

Norvia did not approach. She could understand Judas and Totag, but there were many, many things in this world that could not be easily resolved.

Even love doesn't work.

Love is not that great. What is great is not love, but the holder who is willing to give everything for love.

"...Totag."

Judas spoke softly. She took off the veil from her face. She was beautiful, and even the wrinkles did not detract from her aggressive, open charm.

But she was in pain.

Judas's eyes were bright, as if the haze had just been passing by her.

"Totag, I thought we would love each other until we were old. When I first saw you, I thought, if I had the chance, I would definitely ask you to go for a walk on the beach, and then I would quietly hold your hand and tell you that I am an eagle, I can fly over the sea, I can fly very high, and I know you will think I am the most powerful female eagle in the world.

I saw you very early.

At that time, I was working part-time in a flower shop next to Mehndi College, and I saw you often. You were always silly. You were different from the males I knew. You respected everyone and had a very peaceful personality. I was secretly amazed that there were people like you in the world.

Totag, the amazing thing is that I love you, not just once, not once, but always, and still do. "

"Then why... Jenny, Judas, whatever your name is, I can't lose you. I can stay in Lanier, I support you, I can live here with you, let's not break up... Let's get married in Lanier, okay? When everything is over, we will stay in Lanier..."

"Is your life on hold like this? Totag, what about your parents? What about your life? Your aunt and uncle are very good to me. You are their only child. They are so close to you and they love you so much. They also give me so much love. How can I let you stay in Lanier away from them and make them sad?

Totag, if you stay at Lanier, you will give up your future. Because I love you, I can't selfishly let you stay here, stay with me. I know what a good analyst you are, I know you love your work, I know you have planned your future, I know you, and I love what I know about you.

Totag, we will never feel at ease when you are with me. We can't live normally. I want to marry you. I once left everything in the past and wanted to start a new life, but... my past always haunts me. I am the female eagle from Lanier, Totag. I can't forget this. I can't erase this. I don't want to live with you in fear. I love you, and I want our happiness to be seamless. This is why I chose to come back. I need closure. I didn't think I could walk out of Vince alive.

It was Lord Franche who saved me. She needed me, and I was saved because of my own value. If I had the ability to be a role model, if I could make many female eagles like me feel the happiness I once felt, then I couldn't leave Lanier with you. I have more things to do, I will often go to dangerous places, there will be many female eagles who want me dead, I will be assassinated...

Our life will never be peaceful. I can't be the wife you expect. Jenny is dead, Judus is dead, Totag, I still love you, but I can't be with you anymore."

Judas hung her head in dejection. She was no better than Totag. She also wanted to live a peaceful and happy life with her lover... She had made a lot of efforts for this. But she was not saved for this reason. She had her value and the meaning of her existence. When she knew that she had such ability, she would not waste it.

She can do very simple math problems.

She exchanged the happiness of one eagle for the possible happy future of countless female eagles. Of course, the latter was more cost-effective, just like when she gave up artichokes and chose broccoli when buying vegetables.

Totag could never understand why Judas wanted to break up. His love for Jenny was not mixed with any other interests. No matter what the past of Jenny or Judas was, he accepted it. He remembered Jenny's bright eyes. When Jenny was by his side, he had endless courage even if he had to fight the world. He loved his lover with all his strength, and he could do anything.

"I don't expect you to be a certain kind of wife, Jenny... Judas, I can work anywhere. I just want to be with you. We can be together at Lanier... You obviously love me, so why..."

"We stay in Lanier, what about your parents? Will they accept it? Can they accept my past? I once killed my husband and children. Can they accept you being with me?"

"They will respect my choice, Judas. This is not a problem that prevents us from being together."

"…I am infertile. Totag, we will not have any children."

"We can adopt. It doesn't matter if we don't have children..."

"I won't be at home for a long time. We may have to move frequently. I may have to be on guard against assassination at all times. Totag, there may be no trace of my residence in our house. You may be kidnapped because of me. There is no suitable job for you in Lanier. We will not live a normal family life. We have to face more than this. I have been married and have started a family. I know how many annoying trivialities there are in a family. After major events, our love will be worn away by these trivialities-"

"We have lived together for a long time. Jenny... Judas, we have never quarreled. The daily trivialities are also happiness for me. I can do housework and be your 'wife'. I am not Lanier's eagle. Judas, believe me, we can go on. As long as we are together, we can overcome all difficulties, just like before."

Totag smiled at the end of his speech. He hadn't laughed for a long time, so his expression was a little stiff, and his body was shaking because of the cold raindrops. He was so embarrassed. He was tortured by the disappearance of his fiancée. It was not his fault. He and Judas were both victims of fate.

Judas already knew what kind of person Totag was. He was so good that he helped her get rid of the shadow of the past and remain firm in love. With tears in her eyes, she bent down and kissed Totag's cheek.

"I know. ... I know. But life is not like this, Totag. We didn't quarrel in the past because my job was very leisurely. I loved you and my life was occupied by love. You didn't know my past and I hid part of my personality. This way our life could be perfect without any flaws.

But it won't be like that now. You won't have normal social interaction at Lanier. Just like you said, you are not Lanier's eagle. You have no partners here. You will feel depressed and miserable, and I won't be as good-tempered as before. I will slowly become impatient under endless pressure. But if we separate by then, it will be too late. You will be far away from your ideals. Your former friends, your closest family, the achievements you should have achieved... Totag, how much more effort will it take to regain these?

Totag, you are so good, you will be fine with anyone you are with. I don't want to end up with only hatred with you. I love you, I love everything about you, and I hope you can live the life you deserve. "

Totag felt the warmth on his face. His lover's kiss healed the pain, and he looked radiant, almost like a dying man's last glimmer of light. His eyes lit up, and despite the cold rain, he held his lover's hand and spoke hurriedly.

"You haven't tried it yet. We haven't tried it yet! How do you know it won't work? Judas, give us a chance. Don't push me out again. I can't live without you. I need you. I won't go back without you. I will stay in Lanier forever. I want to face those unknown dangers with you... Judas, do you remember? Today was the day we were going to get married.

Don't break up on this day... I don't understand why we have come to this point. There is no misunderstanding between us. I know your past, you understand me, you still love me, I love you, why do we have to separate? "

"Because of love—"

Judas looked at Totag, she felt the pain soaking her again and again, love made things complicated, but love alone was not enough. Her emotions with Totag were intertwined like a ball of thread, but they could never be woven into a complete carpet. The feelings were always burning, but this did not stop the cold rain from being violent, the seasons from changing, and the sea from roaring.

To love someone is to hope that he becomes better, that he has nothing to worry about, and that he is happy and successful. But these are things that will never happen after being with her.

She loves him as much as she loves herself.

Totag kissed Judas's wrist, then he looked up firmly, with heat surging in his eyes.

"I love you more than I love myself. If I had to choose, I would be with you against the world. I can't go back to a life without you. I'm not whole without you. I gave you a part of me. No matter what happens, I want to be by your side."

It's not that I haven't thought about it. When I knew your original name, found your traces, and understood your past, I wondered if I loved you as you are now. But I found that I didn't need to think about it. I couldn't help loving you. I couldn't think of a reason. I know your concerns, but I am willing to give it a try. I can afford the cost of failure. Judas, just think of it as pity for me... Today, we should have gotten married. Today, we..."

"You'll regret this, Totag, and I'll regret it too if I promise you."

Judas relented. There was still obvious hesitation and struggle between her brows, but she couldn't bear to be cruel to her lover.

This was enough to make Totag ignore the terrible rain at this time. Totag stood up shakily and then half-knelt solemnly.

The rain suddenly stopped. The water vapor moved away from him and Judas as if it had its own consciousness, and his clothes became dry. Totag turned his head and saw the white-haired, blue-eyed water magician in the distance. He nodded gratefully to Norvia, and then took out the ring he had always been wearing.

When he was on the verge of collapse countless times, it was this ring that kept him going.

"This is not our wedding, but please let the gods punish me, let me bear your fate, let me bear all the suffering on your behalf."

These words don't sound like wedding vows, but more like the promises of believers. Love makes people lose their minds and do ridiculous things.

Judas should have refused. But after a long time, she took the ring and held it close to her heart.

"I regret it now. Totag, think about it again - make your decision at the end of this month."

……

"I decided to eat beef hotpot tonight~"

Irene announced loudly while holding the ingredients, and soon received cheers from the children, led by Yalin Xiu.

She also didn't know when she became the guardian wolf of the cubs. Valerie and Teacher Musa were both out, Zhuqi took Sulan to see Pingluo, Fiana tied up Falankan who tried to escape back to Trentedan to see the doctor, and Norvia and the others would have dinner at Sana's house before coming over.

Plans never change as fast as they should. Fortunately, Huett will be back soon.

Irene did a lot of paperwork today, and towards the evening she received a message from Otekest.

Qinao seems ready to return to politics.

Irene was not surprised that Qin Ao had just put her plan on hold, but Qin Ao never gave up. Irene knew very well that Qin Ao would be her strong rival in the neighboring country.

The bell rang.

Irene jumped to open the door, she knew it should be Hughie who came at this time.

Sure enough, the red-haired and blue-eyed captain was holding the specialty of Futsu in his hand, but he was thinking about something with a frown on his face.

"what's wrong?"

Irene asked curiously, and Huet briefly described his confrontation with Deling.

He found that De Ling had a close relationship with Teacher Musa, and also had a good relationship with Teacher Musa's mother, Persila. De Ling's identity was complicated. She was working for the king on the surface, but secretly she was an important member of the Female Eagle Organization. However, after Huett's contact, he felt that De Ling's actual attitude was more neutral. De Ling didn't like either side.

Irene exclaimed.

She remembered what Teacher Musa once said.

...Is it really possible for Teacher Musa to go find De Ling?